What do you want? What do you really, really want? If you could have any life you chose, and live out your biggest dreams, what would it look like?
I haven’t asked myself these questions in 20 years. When I was 13 and full of adolescent angst I spent a lot of time contemplating my future and dreaming grand dreams. I was destined for greatness in those days, and I had the straight-A report cards and the spiral bound notebooks filled with my truly awful poetry to prove it. I decided I would be an actress. But not in TV or movies, oh no. How dÃ©classÃ©! Only the theatre would do for my immense talents. Or, failing that, I would be Governor General of Canada. Being Prime Minister sounded like too much work. And really, who wants to campaign for office?
(Speaking of which, Mr. Harper, if you’re looking for the next GG and you want a fellow Westerner with French worse than yours, I am totally available. I’ll even promise to keep the travel budget in check because really, I don’t like to fly all that much. Call me!)
Anyways, in my current state of trying to re-invent my life I am taking an online class called Mondo Beyondo. It’s all about dreaming big. Listening to those parts of your mind you’d forgotten about, and getting back in touch with what you really want to do. Even taking the class is a bit of a leap for me, because I veer more in the direction of practical and solid these days. I have a mortgage and two kids to take care of, after all. Mine is not to reason why, mine is but to put food on the table and not go crazy in the process. But I decided I should try it, I should step outside of my comfortable adult world and dream a little.
What can it hurt? Plus, I might as well aim high and pursue something I really want to pursue this time around, right? So I made my Mondo Beyondo list. The things I want to do with my one ‘wild and precious life‘. Sharing it is a bit of a gamble for me, because it makes me feel vulnerable. Really, who am I to want this stuff? What makes me think I’m special? What if I fall on my face?
The answer is I’m not particularly special. Or at least no more than everyone is special. But I am also no less deserving than anyone else. And I can’t expect good things to happen for me if I’m not even willing to talk about what I want. So I’m taking the gamble and putting it out there.
What about you? Do you have any Mondo Beyondo dreams of your own? I’d love to hear them.