Imagine that a giant electrical storm is about to destroy the internet, and I can share one last message. This is it:
I am the mom of two little kids. In my daily life I do a lot of wiping – bottoms, countertops, walls that someone ‘decorated’. It is not inspiring work, so while I wipe I let my mind fly free to other times and places. I use my imagination, much like the little people I wipe up after, to try on hats like opera singer, teacher and writer. Sometimes, with some hats, I get a tingle up my spine. An electricity speaks to me, and it says yes. This.
Unfortunately, life with little kids doesn’t allow me much time to pursue my passions. At least not the big ones, and not all at once. So I settle for small things – sewing myself a skirt, working in my garden, dragging myself out of bed while it’s still dark to see the Olympic Torch. When I can’t do it all I remind myself that my kids will not be little forever. Sooner (much sooner) than I expect, I will have quiet time and free hands.
In the meantime, there has been this blog, this precious space on the internet. I shared it with you, we cheered each other on, and it made my heart sing. I didn’t feel so silly. I dreamed bigger and more freely. I hope that you did, too. We reminded each other that dreams are worth pursuing, and that passion and community matter.
One day, when I’m ready to follow my heart, my dreams will be there, waiting for me. I have this space, and you, to thank for that. For reminding me who I am, and what I feel passionate about.
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I wrote this post for Mabel’s Labels BlogHer ’10 Contest. I know I said that I wasn’t going to BlogHer, but if I win the contest I will make it happen. So wish me luck!
Update – I am in the top 10! Thank you for all of your well wishes, and keep them coming!
Great entry! It’s going to be so hard for the judges to pick a winner I think. I have read SO many awesome entries.
Good luck
.-= Carrie´s last post ..Need new glasses? =-.
I gave in and entered too, last week.
Good luck miss lady!!
.-= the Grumbles´s last post ..greener pastures =-.
AHA! When I read the title, I thought the post was going to be about something VERY different about having 2 young kids interupting the other passion….. teehee.
I am glad your dreams persist while doing the drudgery of endless chores… sometimes I find it hard to keep hold of the spark.
Yeah, I was ready for some x-rated Strocel. But this is good too.
.-= allison´s last post ..***************Lest Ye Be Judged and all that crap =-.
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Good luck! It would be great to see you there.
.-= Lady M´s last post ..If You Give a Baby a Cookie =-.
I was afraid there for a minute that you were saying you weren’t going to blog anymore.
.-= Delia´s last post ..A Midwife’s Tale =-.
This is so lovely.
And good luck!
.-= Amber Morrisey´s last post ..Something I’ve never seen before =-.
good luck and thanks for reminding me that right now, I’m just serving my apprenticeship for whatever lies beyond!
.-= pomomama aka ebbandflo´s last post ..Friday forte! the frugal edition =-.
What a great post! Good luck. If you win we can run amok in NYC together!
.-= Marilyn @ A Lot of Loves´s last post ..Argue, Rinse, Repeat. =-.
Oh Amber, this is a beautiful post! Thank you and good luck!
.-= Francesca´s last post ..Spring blizzard =-.
Hey Amber! Congrats on making it to the top 10! I will keep my fingers crossed for you!
.-= Chantal´s last post ..Hoarders =-.
Congrats on being in the top ten. I can relate to everything you wrote. Being a mom is extraordinary even if it doesn’t feel like it while we’re “wiping.”
.-= Janna @ The Adventure of Motherhood´s last post ..Top 10 Features of Our Cardboard House: Watch out Polly Pocket! =-.
Beautiful post! I especially love the line, “I didn’t feel so silly. I dreamed bigger and more freely.” Ditto!
I’m so glad to have discovered your blog. Just love it. Thanks for stopping by mine, too!
Congratulations on making the top 10!
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